Dear Younger Me

Dear Diana,

    Breathe. No really. I mean it. Take this moment, and breathe. Intentionally. I know you're afraid, and you are soooo scared that you'll "mess things up." Let me remind you of one small detail (this is sarcasm, I know you hardly use it), God is God and He is for you. You're not somehow going to ruin the plan He has for your life, so just breathe and trust in His sovereignty. Let me break things down for you based on the things you're probably concerned about.

Faith   Php 1:6 is going to be one of your favorite verses. "Being confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will continue it until the day of Jesus Christ". "He who calls you is faithful, He will surely do it" (I Thess 5:24). You'll learn to trust these promises and hold on to them, especially in seasons when everything around you seems to be crumbling. When your self-righteousness fails, and it will, Jesus will be faithful to open your eye…

God is Kind

Lately God has been teaching me more about His character. He has been showing me that He is kind. Simple enough right? WRONG!lol, I mean conceptually I always knew God to be kind, but I didn't actively think about that attribute of His. I usually think of His faithfulness, steadfast love, or creativity, etc, but not so much His kindness. Now, let me be honest, kind isn't a word I use very often, or one that I even hear very often. Let me explain the contexts I've heard the word kind before.

Kind eyes I remember when KP and I were dating, and people would tell me that he had "kind eyes". I came to find out that what people meant was that his eyes seemed to define him as a genuine, warm, and honest person. Yes.Yes. and Yes All good things, all good things (did i just quote Olaf?)

"Be kind" I'm pretty sure I've said this phrase to our little one, and I have  probably heard other parents tell their children this, it's usually accompanied by a less…

Stepping into Motherhood

Hi, my name is Diana.
I am 25 years old. I have a preschooler.
Yeah, I'm sure you are. Let me explain.
       Being a mother is a wonderful and unique role. I truly believe that God has fashioned and made mothers integral to the fabric of society. That being said, you know those little girls who go to sleep and dream of being a mother? The ones who walk around with their baby dolls in their toy strollers and sing them to sleep at night? Welp... I wasn't one of those. Nope. Well, not that  I remember at least. Even as I grew older, I never really pondered being a mother much. I mean, conceptually I always thought that one day... in the distant future..after years of marriage...then it would eventually happen, but it wasn't a burning desire I had, you know?
        And then one day..I became one. Okay...let me explain.

There is a huge long testimony of God's faithfulness amidst my sinfulness behind how all this actually happened, but I'm going to skip that…

Ashes of Defeat

We went to a worship night this past weekend. It was incredible. It was awesome being in the congregation and just able to worship, not having to think about anything else other than...Jesus. Kho and I lead worship at our church now, so on Sunday mornings as we worship with the congregation,we often are thinking of other aspects(such as the flow of the song, and if the band and vocals are on the same page, and transitions) as well as Jesus.

But on Sunday night we weren't leading worship, and the Lord faithfully fixed my eyes on Him.

The worship team began to sing Resurrecting by Elevation Worship. As I sang the words to this song, the Lord revealed that the words were a declaration of truth for my life.

     By Your Spirit I will rise from the ashes of defeat
                                           The resurrected King is resurrecting me

These past months have been ....different. I don't know what other word to use to accurately sum them up. I've wrestled with a lot of th…


These past months have been marked by waves- waves of lessons, waves of reflection, waves of emotions, waves of Truth. In the midst of them, I despise them. Afterwards...I despise them. Okay, lol, I'm kidding about the afterwards part. In reality, the  Lord promises us that " suffering produces perseverance, perseverance produces character, character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame because the love of God has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us" (Romans 5:2-5). His word also reminds us that the "testing of our faith produces endurance, and the result of enduring is being mature and complete" (James 1:4). I believe this! One of the issues that I have is that after learning about one lesson, and the Lord teaching me through one wave, I start comes another one....

Let me clarify something: majority of these "waves" are not so much external things, as much as they are faulty con…

When words fail

I don't know where to start with this post So,I'm guessing the title is fitting "when words fail".

To my readers and dear friends who haven't heard yet, Khory and I got married!! Ahh, almost a month ago, we both committed our lives to serving the Lord together, and serving one another in the way Christ calls us to.
My primary love language is words of affirmation, I love reading blogs in my spare time, and I communicate best through words, yet..I'm speechless. And let's just say I've found myself being "speechless" A LOT during this season. God is gracious. 
If we rewind back to last December, I was on the floor, crying, wanting to disappear, and I was truly convinced that I was crazy (some sort of mental/emotional instability). Between my disobedience, anxiety, fear, and fighting against principalities and powers in high places, I found myself feeling hopeless.
I really wondered how in the world the Lord could make beauty from the apparent…


Adulting. A new word that has made it's way into the English vernacular. What does it mean? Well, according to Urban Dictionary (reliable source):

Adulting (v): to do grown up things and hold responsibilities such as, a 9-5 job, a mortgage/rent, a car payment, or anything else that makes one think of grown ups. Used in a sentence: Jane is adulting quite well today as she is on time for work promptly at 8am and appears well groomed. Lol, well. That made me chuckle  giggle. You see, lately I have been trying to figure out this whole adult thing. And I've been failing horribly at it. I mean, horribly.  Yes, I'm engaged. Yes, I graduated with a degree. Yes, I have a job. Yes, I pay rent.  And while all those things may be true... Yes.. I still make mistakes. Yes, I still didn't get that scholarship I applied for. Yes, I didn't update my address soon enough so missed  out on important information. Yes, I sometimes leave my fiance hanging during situations when he really…